Food Diary Monday - Wednesday

Been neglecting my blog a bit ever since I got back from TITP - I'm so tired in the evenings that I just don't have anything interesting to say! I'm bored at work so thought I'd post a quick catch up!

Monday:

Breakfast: 1 scoop whey with 100ml skimmed milk and water. 150g 0% Greek yogurt with 100g frozen raspberries and 60g frozen blueberries - I'm not a big fan of the frozen blueberries, the texture is really weird and kind of sticks in my teeth. I was trying to save money by buying fromzen but I think I'll stick to fresh for the blueberries. Raspberries are great though!
Snack: 1 babybel light and a satsuma
Lunch: Thai Chicken soup - my new favourite!
Snack: Carrot sticks with salsa and a Nakd bar
Dinner: All we seem to have in this week is bacon and eggs so I had 2 of each plus a slive of buttered bread for the bacon - this was heaven!
Snack: 2 scoops whey with water, 1tsp nut butter, chocolate protein shake ice lolly, 1 slice toast with butter and Marmite - once I eat bread I can't stop myself!

Drinks: Tea, coffee, diet red bull, water


Total Cal Quota: 1612
Calories Consumed: 1475
Calories Left: 137

Protein (g) 145.6 (36%)
Carbohydrate (g) 104.5 (44%)
Fat (g) 53.7 (20%)
Fibre (g) 18.4
Fruit & Veg 4.4
Water (litres) 3.0


Tuesday:


Breakfast: 1 scoop whey with 100ml skimmed milk and water. 20g oats with 150ml skimmed milk and here's the embarrassing bit - I added half a jar of Mango Surprise Cow & Gate baby food - the pear puree I bought before was so lovely in the porridge but I realiesed it's just baby food in grown up packaging at a higher price so thought I'd give it a go - lovely stuff! Don't worry, I'm not about to go all Jennifer Anniston and start living off baby food!
Snack: 1 babybel light and a satsuma
Lunch: Thai Chicken soup
Snack: 0% Greek yogurt with mixed berries and a Nakd bar
Pre-Workout 1 scoop whey with 100ml skimmed milk and water
Post-Workout 1 scoop whey with water and half a Berry cheeky Nakd bar
Dinner: Higgidy Moroccan Veg and Feta pie and a teaspoon of peanut butter while I waited as I was starving!
Snack: Other half of the Nakd bar, protein cookie thing - tried baking with protein again but I just don't like the stuff cooked! They are ok cut in half with a little honey though. 1 slice toast with butter and Marmite - really can't stop myself!

Drinks: Coffee, water

Exercise: Full body weights then 20 mins intervals on the treadmill, plus half hour walk each way to/from the gym - because I walk in my gym stuff I make sure I'm walking fast enought to get hot and sweaty so decided not to bother with my usual 5 min warm up on the bike. Don't think I'll do that again as I struggled to get my HR up as high as normal and the whole thing just didn't feel 'right'


Daily Cal Quota: 1612
+ Exercise Cals: 541
Total Cal Quota: 2153
Calories Consumed: 1967
Calories Left: 186

Protein (g) 148.2 (36%)
Carbohydrate (g) 196.5 (44%)
Fat (g) 66.7 (20%)
Fibre (g) 26.6
Fruit & Veg 5.1
Water (litres) 3.6

Spooky - my carbs/protein/fat ration is identical to yesterdays with different foods and completely unintentional!


Wednesday:

Breakfast: 1 scoop whey with 100ml skimmed milk and water. 0% Greek yogurt with frozen raspberries and blueberries, 10g flaxseed (last of the pack thank god! Like the taste, hate the texture it's far too finely ground) and 1tsp honey
Snack: 1 babybel light and a satsuma
Lunch: Nakd bar and a small hot chocolate - I've been getting weird pains in my chest so had to leave work at 11.30am to go to the doctor - they don't let you book appointments in advance so it was now or never! Got back to work at 1.30pm an dstraight into a 1 hour meeting so no time for my chicken soup :(
Snack: Carrot sticks with salsa followed by some naughty-ness - I was really craving a Mars Bar and as I wondered past the reduced trolly in Sainsburys I clocked a cheap Slim fast version of a mars bar and a nutri-grain choc chip cookie so ate those on the way home.
Dinner: Carbonara
Snack: Apple cable sweetie thingy that I pinched from my boyfriend

Drinks: Coffee, water, energy drink - these are like bread, I get hooked on them.


Total Cal Quota: 1612
Calories Consumed: 1871
Calories Left: -259

Protein (g) 83.5 (18.5%)
Carbohydrate (g) 284.8 (59.2%)
Fat (g) 44.8 (20%)
Fibre (g) 22.3
Fruit & Veg 5.5
Water (litres) 1.6

Wow! What a crappy day that turned out to be!!

Today is going a bit better but I don't know what I'm having for dinner, I'm getting my hair cut right when I want to be eating, I have no extra snacks with me and I'm meeting a friend for coffee after the hairdresser - I also couldn't get an appointment at a time thet meant I could go to the gym first and I don't want to go after as it will be the first time my hair has actually looked good since last September!

Progress Pictures

Well, here are the latest progress pictures - you NEED!!!! to click on them if you can only see two pics in each as they are too big so only half is showing - the fat half!

Some changes since last time but still a long way to go!

They are March, May and July for the back shot, Feb, May, June and July for the side and for the front (I think!)

Catch up on the week

Wednesday:

Breakfast: 1 scoop whey with 100ml skimmed milk and water. Greek yogurt with flaxseed, strawberries and honey
Snack: 1 babybel light and 2 satsumas
Lunch: Bowl of turkey broth followed by 60g prawns in 100g cottage cheese for some protein
Snack: Cherries a satsuma and some cashews. I then had half a small Berry Cheek Nakd bar on the way to the supermarket and a little pack of Fruitus chewy fruit bites on the way home - was STARVING! The chewy bite things were lovely but with added crap so will keep those in mind for emergency snacks only
Dinner: Lebanese Chicken kebabs in wholemeal tortilla wraps
Snack: Second half of the Nakd bar and 2 scoops whey in water

Ended up a bit over cals for the day because my afternoon snack wasn't enough and I got starving before dinner, then afterwards thought I may as well finish the Nakd bar!

Total Cal Quota:	1618
Calories Consumed:	1839
Calories Left:	-221

Protein (g)	179.2 (39.2%)
Carbohydrate (g)	163.9 (33.6%)
Fat (g)	55.1 (27.1%)
Fibre (g)	21.2
Fruit & Veg	6.2

Thursday:

Breakfast: 1 scoop whey, half milk half water. Porridge with skimmed milk and pear puree
Snack: 1 babybel light and 2 satsumas
Lunch: Spiced carrot and sweet potato soup Snack: Prawns in cottage cheese, eating was messed up by afternoon meeting so I had my lunchtime prawns late and yogurt at home - Greek yogurt with flaxseed and frozen summer berries and half a scoop cookies and cream whey and a pack of Graze Apple Strudel dried fruit/nuts mix while I waited for dinner
Dinner: Lebanese shark kebabs in wholemeal tortilla wrap - had left over sauce and marinade from the day before and some shark in the freezer - why not? I also had a can of Irn Bru.
Snack: Bowl of Start cereal with skimmed milk

One of those weeks that seemed ok but I was so hungry and ill prepared for the hunger.

Total Cal Quota:	1618
Calories Consumed:	1757
Calories Left:	-139

Protein (g)	130.1 (30.7%)
Carbohydrate (g)	237.1 (52.5%)
Fat (g)	31.6 (16.8%)
Fibre (g)	23.4
Fruit & Veg	6.3

Friday:

Breakfast: Greek yogurt with frozen summer berries and 1 scoop whey
Snack: babybel light and some cherries
Lunch: Spiced carrot and sweet potato soup with a big blob of greek yogurt as I added too much chilli!
Snack: More greek yogurt with half a scoop of chocolate whey
Dinner: Stuffina alla romana - my first ever homemade stew, absolutely beautiful! Will post a recipe later in the week.
Snack: Then it all went wrong when we went to the cinema! I had Doritos, Malteasers and a Relentless energy drink

According to my food diary I also had a small Nakd bar which I really can't remember eating and may have been in there for my original cinema food plan. So I don't think I did eat it but left it in there anyway!

Total Cal Quota:	1612
Calories Consumed:	1833
Calories Left:	-221

Protein (g)	105.8 (24%)
Carbohydrate (g)	242.9 (51.7%)
Fat (g)	44.0 (22.5%)
Fibre (g)	12.8
Fruit & Veg	5.6

Saturday:

Breakfast: 1 boiled egg and half a smoothie that was made with 2 scoops cookies and cream whey, 20g oats, 100g frozen summer berries, 80g greek yogurt and some water
Post-Workout: 1 scoop whey with water and some apple and mango juice
Lunch: When I got home from the gym I had my Graze delivery waiting for me so had some delicious fresh pineapple and some wasabi peanut crackers followed by the rest of my breakfast smoothie
Snack: one oatcake and one plain rice cake topped with 1 chopped boiled egg in a greek yogurt and garlic dressing (left over from the Lebanese kababs) with a little peppered cheese
Dinner: Stuffina alla romano agaian with some pasta
Snack: Cinema again, glass of wine on the way then some Kettle salt and pepper crisps, Dr Pepper and Pick n Mix

I didn't put the cinema snack in my food diary but I also didn't count the 10 miles of walking I did on Saturday! No idea how they balance out but I'm just going to leave it.

PT session was great as always though for the second week running I've got just over half way through and started to feel faint but able to carry on. It seems to happen with with assisted pull up machine - it's a bit like a travel sickness feeling so I think it could be the movement and the metal back of the machine had loads of holes in which make me feel dizzy too so we're going to try something else next week. I'm really sore today but nowhere near as bad as last week!
Burned 694 calories for the PT session and 30 mins walk each way - that's as well as the 10 miles later in the day!


Sunday - well today have been shit so I wont bother detailing it! I had a scoop of whey in water after my run then made a big iced latte type thing with one scoop each cookies and cream whey and chocolate whey, skimmed milk, water and ice. Lunch was a fish finger sandwich on white crusty bread and crisps and dinner was a huge bacon sandwich on white crusty bread with lashings of butter! Oh it was beautiful!

Oooops!

Been a bit crap at updating and a bit crap food-wise over the weekend - nevermind, loss just under 1lb and about half an inch from my waist and hips this week. Only had one weights session, one PT session and this morning I went for my first ever solo outdoor run for 33 minutes - quite a big achievement for, seems silly but I couldn't run outside on my own. This morning I was up stupid early and figured no one would be around so why not! Was raining lightly which was nice but I think I could do with a proper lightweight running jacket as the cheapo Primark one I have quickly gets hot and annoying!


I've just finished making some soup for my lunches at work, it's lovely! Really looking forward to my lunches this week - made 6 portions of it at 158 cals per portion, 50% protein and 1 portion of veg (ish). I got the recipe from a fellow blogger - Getting Lean but the quantities were slightly different. Next time I think I'll make it with more veg but I ran out of space in the wok to add more. Will post my recipe later on.

Filled in my food diary for tomorrow with my rate of loss back at 1lb per week and my current weight at 141.5lb which means I'm back on 1600 cals per day. Hoping to fit in a bit more exercise this week as my mum is visiting at the weekend and I'll be making her birthday cake and heading out for dinner (and wine!). Anyway, food plan for tomorrow is looking good - little high in fat and low on protein but I have no money so need to eat loads of eggs for dinner this week as we have a huge box of eggs and not much else in! Bought a big tub of greek yogurt, some frozen berries, carrots and salsa for my packed lunches and can't aford to stray!

Food Diary 21st July

Quick post to update today's food...

Breakfast: 1 scoop whey with 100ml milk and water, 20g oat with half a pot of pear puree - basically like baby food but more expensive, next time I may as well buy a baby food jar! Was very nice having the porridge with the creamy fruit - definitely be doing this again!
Snack: The usual - babybel light and satsuma
Lunch: Homemade Sweet Potato and Carrot Soup with 60g prawns in 60g cottage cheese
Snack: 100g cherries
Pre-Workout: Half my tub of 0% greek yogurt with strawberries, raspberries and flaxseed and some raisins and walnuts - love walnuts had no idea they were so yummy, have a bit of a caramel sort of taste to them I think
Post-Workout: 1 scoop whey with water andBerry Cheeky 30g Nakd Bar
Dinner: Sushi pack from Asda and the other half of my yogurt and stuff
Supper: 2 scoops whey with 200ml skimmed milk

Drinks: Roibos tea, 1 coffee and water

Exercise: 35 mins full body weights - agony!! and 20 mins intervals on the treadmill - first time I haven't felt sick and had to get off at 15 mins whoop!

Daily Cal Quota:	1618
+ Exercise Cals:	434
Total Cal Quota:	2052
Calories Consumed:	1566
Calories Left:	486

Protein (g)	145.3 (37.8%)
Carbohydrate (g)	181.1 (44.2%)
Fat (g)	30.7 (18%)
Fibre (g)	19.1
Fruit & Veg	6.7
Water (litres)	2.4

I am actually making an effort to get carbs down and protein up, whilst still getting good fats - didn't get so many fts today but got the carbs down.
Also making more effort to change about some food - not big changes but it means that each day isn't exactly the same - but I am limited because food has to be travel/work friendly and having one salad or one soup for the week is a lot cheaper then trying to change things about daily - it's also easier and involves less preparation!

Keema Curry

Made this for the first time on Friday and absolutely loved it! Next time I'm going to try more veg, less potato and chicken instead of mince, I think the chicken would be very nice with the coconut and spinach. I'm also considering sweet potato instead of regular potato...
Good meal for making a big batch of, fairly quick to prepare, though 40 mins in the oven, and really easy.

Keema Curry:
Serves 5

• 1 Med/180g Onion
• 100g Baby Spinach
• 25g Tomato Puree
• 5g Coriander
• 400ml Coconut, Milk
• 3 Cloves Garlic
• 20g/1 Chilli Pepper
• 1 Tsp Cumin
• 30g Curry Paste
• 150g Red Pepper
• 1 Tsp/5ml Olive Oil
• 500g Baby New Potatoes
• 500g Beef Mince
• 75g Red Onions

Preheat oven to 180C

Cut the potatoes into halves/quarters and boil for 10 minutes

Chop the onion, red pepper, and spinach and crush the garlic

Heat oil in a (big) pan and fry onion for 3 minutes until softened, add the mince and fry for a further 5 minutes until browned.

Add the coriander, garlic, chilli and cumin and fry for a further minute.

Stir in the tomato puree, spinach, peppers, potatoes, coconut milk, and curry paste and simmer for 1 minute.

Transfer to an oven dish and cook in the oven for 40 minutes.

Keeps well in the fridge for a few days (made on Friday, finished it on Monday) and don't see any reason that it wouldn't freeze well.


Per Serving:

Calories (kcal)	508.8
Carbohydrate (g)	30.4
Protein (g)	24.4
Fat (g)	32.9
Fibre (g)	5.5
Fruit & Veg	1.4

Back on Track

After lots of wine and a bit of a binge over the weekend I have managed a very good day! Still got a protein cookies and cream shake left to have so hopefully that will be it for tonight! I'm stuffed form my dinner so no need to snack anymore anyway.


Breakfast: 1 scoop whey with 100ml skimmed milk followed by 125g 0% greek yogurt with 10g flaxseed, 100g raspberries and 80g strawberries
Snack: 1 babybel light and 1 satsuma
Lunch: Bowlw of very spicy sweet potato and carrot soup with big blob of fromage frais and some skimmed milk as it was far too spicy! Got 3 more bowl to eat too!
Snack: 1 carrot chopped into stick dipped in salsa
Dinner: Keema Curry (picture in next post) with some pilau rice and a protein shake ice lolly
Snack: 1 scoop cookies and cream whey with water

Drinks: Water and a coffee

Exercise: None today as I'm in agony from the PT session on Saturday!

Daily Cal Quota:	1618
+ Exercise Cals:	0
Total Cal Quota:	1618
Calories Consumed:	1531
Calories Left:	87

Protein (g)	124.9 31.5%
Carbohydrate (g)	143.2 35.5%
Fat (g)	52.9 31.5% (damn curry!)
Fibre (g)	27.1
Fruit & Veg	7.7
Water (litres)	1.2 still working on it tonight!

Having an easy week again, I've got my WLR loss rate set to just 0.5lb this week and I'll only be having 3 gym sessions, all weights.
Busy week at work again, month end has begun! Actually feeling pretty good about work today, had a meeting which went well and another moment of thinking I know what I'm doing - still a long way to go mind! Sadly my engineer I work with is leaving in a couple of months, she's really nice and easy going and knows EVERYTHING! Hope the replacement is good.


Oh and this picture has nothing to do with this post, I ate it weeks ago but it was so yummy I had to share - meant to post at the time but kept forgetting!
Tilapia on green beans and mange tout cooked on george foreman with garlic, salt and tons of pepper. Perfect.

Still here

Just really busy and really tired after the weekend away - but I'm hungover today and my boyfriend will be out for the whole day so no doubt I'll be blogging later on!

Been a good week diet and loss wise - didn't go to the gym this week though, just too tired! Yesterday mornings PT session was the first exercise in 9 days and boy did I know it! Could not believe how much harder it was, still I managed to squat just 4kg under my own body weight so definitely not a bad session! I'm really feeling it today! I do like the feeling of DOMS, but only every so often, I hate getting it every session as it puts me off and gets me thinking I don't want to do this if I have to spend my life in pain struggling to move! Nice to get the odd reminder I'm working hard though.

Loss over the last week and a half was 2.2lb plus half an inch of my thighs and waist and smaller losses elsewhere, except my boobs which are bigger again this week - I mostly ignore that measurement actually, they just please themselves and there seems no pattern for it...

Anyhoo, here are my losses since I started recording on 1st Feb:

Weight 24.2 lb
Bust 2.9 inches
Under Bust 3.6
Waist 4.7
Hips 4.4
Hips at Widest 3.5
Top of Thighs (L) 2.5
Above Knees (L) 2.4
Calves (L) 0.9
Upper Arms (L) 1.6

I was going to take some progress pics today but I'm feeling a big bloated and gross after all the wine last night so I'll give it another week!

Feeling Thin (ish)

Thanks to TOTM my weight went from 144.8lb - just under my first real goal of 145lb, up to 146.2lb and has now gone back down to 144.4lb - means my loss for last week was only 0.4lb but still a move in the right direction and I got to eat pizza and drink wine!

I've really been noticing that with having lost some weight and generally being healthier I really notice the effects of bloating - this last week I've just felt so fat and puffy and gross and generally de-motivated. This morning I woke up bloat-free and feeling great!

Hopefully this wont all go away after tonights Indian meal, I'd really rather not go but it will be a fun night and I'll just have to control myself, I wont have a starter or pudding - I'm off to T in the Park this weekend so food options are going to be quite limited. You can't take food in so I will be relying completely on whatever is there. They have said that for this year the Healthy T area has been expanded...

This year we have crammed in even more tasty outlets, whilst maintaining a strong emphasis on the very best in healthy Scottish produce.
We have the award winning Food from Argyll, fresh from their success at winning an Excellence Award at the 2009 Scot:Land of Food and Drink awards; check out their organic lamb burgers served with home grown salad, Cullen Skink and hot smoked salmon rolls - taste for yourself what all the fuss is about.
Healthy T favourites such as Stoats Porridge Oats, Mutley's Crêpes and J's Jackets and Stovies all make a welcome return, but if your tastes lean towards the more exotic fear not, our global festival kitchen is also full of eastern promise with new arrivals: Japanese noodle bar Now and Zen, Johnny Baghdad's Falafels, or leave your shoes at the door and enjoy a sit-down slap-up three course meal in the sumptuous fresh sushi restaurant housed in a gorgeous yurt.
Fire in the Hole will give you fire in your belly for more of their wood-fired artisan pizzas and James Mackie Fruit and the Smoothie Shack are on hand to help you make sure you're getting your daily 5-a-day portion of fruit and veg

Sounds promising! I've had a look at the timetable as well and will only need to have two dinners and one lunch there so I should do ok. Might see if I get away with smuggling in a nakd bar and pack of blueberries, wont be too great a loss if I do lose them.
I also wont be drinking as much water as I do most days because I'd rather not have to pee so often!

Interesting Article...

Not sure when it's interesting yet but it has got my thinking about my butt.

http://figureathlete.tmuscle.com/free_online_article/most_recent/how_strong_are_your_glutes_really

There's two tests which apparently assess how well your glutes activate - in order to get good results when it comes to your butt you need to be activating your glutes during exercises such as squats and deadlifts. If you fail the test you need to train your glutes so that they will activate better/properly during other exercises.
I looked at the tests and thought "piece of p*ss" got on the floor... and failed. Miserably on test one and a bit on test two. Test one I couldn't even get my left leg off the floor and my right leg was a real struggle, didn't get very high and I wobbled a lot! Test two, I managed ok but I definitely wasn't able to keep the same tension on the ball so that was a fail too.

I'm going to try these again before my PT session on Thursday morning as today my muscles are still little sore from Saturday and Monday's workouts plus today's running. I'm not convinced I'll do much better though!

Time for some more reading....

It's Back!

I'm not sure what 'it' is but seems to have returned!

I really enjoyed today's food and as I was preparing tomorrow's food I actually felt quite excited about it (even though it's mostly the same)
I went a little over cals yesterday, but I totally blame my boyfriend - I was chopping veg and he shoved a sweetie in my mouth, I should have spat it out really but I felt bad so ate it and said thanks!

Tomorrow isn't going to be the best day in terms of diet and exercise - out team members from Bangalore fly back this week so tomorrow night we are having dinner at what is supposed to be a lovely family run South Indian restaurant so my dinner options will be limited but I will go for a healthy option! I also wont have time to exercise between work and dinner, but I have the PT at 10am on Thursday!


Food Diary 6th July

Breakfast: apple and blueberry Oat so Simple - ran out of oats and found this in the cupboard, it's really rather gross, all pale, no texture...
Snack: babybel light and 2 satsumas
Lunch: sandwich with oat bread and ham and pineapple - my cupboards were bare so had to buy lunch
Snack: 100g greek yogurt with 100g red grapes
Pre-Workout Snack: Fruitus fruit & oats bar
Post Workout: protein shake with water
Dinner: Either beef stroganoff or thai beef stir fry with basmati rice
Snack: 1tsp almond butter and the sweetie my boyfriend force-fed me! Oh and on the way home from the supermarket I had half a (reduced to clear) Ryvita Goodness Bar and a lychee!

Exercise: full body weights workout at home - my weights just are hot heavy enough for step ups so I dropped the weight and swapped to pendulum step overs, they are very easy to cheat on but an absolute killer when done properly. I love them :D

Drinks: my bodyweight in espresso and some water

Daily Cal Quota:	1398
+ Exercise Cals:	187
Total Cal Quota:	1585
Calories Consumed:	1640
Calories Left:	-55

Protein (g)	112.1
Carbohydrate (g)	197.8
Fat (g)	44.1
Fibre (g)	13.5
Fruit & Veg	4.7
Water (litres)	2.7

Food Diary 7th July

Breakfast: porridge with almond butter - thanks Rachel!
Snack: Babybel light, satsuma, lychees
Lunch: salad of grated carrot and courgette, yellow pepper, tomato, watercress, crab, fromage frais with lime juice and a sprinkling of Food Doctor Salad Boost nuts, seeds and herbs
Snack: half greek yogurt half natural yogurt with flaxseed and the rest of the lychees
Pre-Workout: was supposed to be the second half of the Ryvita Goodness Bar from yesterday but I was in a meeting than ran late an left in a hurry witht the bar still in my drawer so just had a protein shake, half milk half water
Post-Workout: cookies and cream shake
Dinner: Chocolate protein pancake with almond butter and natural yogurt - I screwed this up but the flavour was nice! I'm not very good at cooking pancakes or any form of eggs for some reason - I get the fear, worry I'm f*cking it up and then do f*ck it it. I flipped the pancake too soon and it fell to pieces and landed in a heap so bits were burnt and other bits raw :( Next time!

Drinks: espresso and water

Exercise: 30 mins intervals at the gym on the cross trainer and the treadmill - my running has improved loads! Still crap at it but I could barely run at all previously.

Daily Cal Quota:	1403
+ Exercise Cals:	332
Total Cal Quota:	1734
Calories Consumed:	1575
Calories Left:	159

Protein (g)	173.0
Carbohydrate (g)	115.6
Fat (g)	49.3
Fibre (g)	18.8
Fruit & Veg	4.9
Water (litres)	3.4

Motivation slowly returning!

Started feeling much better towards the end of the week and my motivation is returning! I've still been eating bad but I've kept up with exercise 5 days a week for the last 5 weeks - previously I was only doing the weights training days per week but now I am doing 3 weights sessions plus 2 cardio sessions - would like to get this up to 3 of each so I'm only having one rest day a week.

I'm quite happy to report a 1lb gain this week as I've had almost two weeks of eating crap and it's TOTM so I was expecting a depressingly large gain - not going to let that encourage me to keep eating crap though as it will catch up on me and it just doesn't agree with me, my body hasn't been enjoying it as much as my mind!

Today I'm hoping will be a good food day - I've started with a protein pancake and a couple of cups of tea, just hope I can keep it up!

PT Session/ Food Diary 4th July

After a crappy week I was really looking forward to this! And I'm really feeling it today!

Started off with the usual 5 min warm up on the cross trainer - couldn't face the treadmill after my breakfast, I was just too full! It's also TOTM so I was/still am feeling big and bloaty and a bit sluggish and the 5 mins were a real struggle!

Over to the squat rack which I haven't used for ages and absolutely love! Started off with 10kg plus the 20kg bar for the first set then went up to 40kg, 50kg and 60kg for two sets, managed the first at 60kg but not quite full set for the last. Quite please with this sine not long ago I was struggling with just the bar! Hopefully next time we'll star with a heavier weight rather than building up from 30kg.

Next I did a horrible set on the thigh extension, lower weight than usual-
25 reps, 10 second rest
15 reps, 10 second rest
10 reps 10 second rest x 3
the whole of both legs just felt like liquid after this and I could barely walk when I got off it!

Stumbled over to the assisted pull up and did 3 sets of pull ups and tricep dips

Finished with some core work and included an exercise to focus on my lower back which involved using the scariest piece of gym equipment I've encountered! (bit like that but you start off more upright and have further to fall!) It might not look like much but when you're throwing ourself over the edge it does feel like you are about to fall right off it and topple the bench over and smack your head off something large and metal.

Once I got home I got changed and headed back out with my boyfriend for lots and lots of walking, including through the international market where we shared a lovely paella before heading for the beach and stopping off at the new ice cream parlour for the most amazing sorbet I've ever tasted - green apple! Really lovely wee place and I hope it stays open. Wandered down to the beach where we only sat for about half an hour because my poor boyfriend burns so easly and hadn't put much factor 40 on his legs so we walked along by the edge of the sea which was f***** freezing!! It may be a scorching hot day, but it is still the North Sea... byt this time is was around 4pm so a good idea to give my boyfriend break from the sun so we thought we may as well go to the cinema since it's at the beach (Year One, crap.) Followed by another walk back into town to Pizza Express, shared the healthy version of their Bruscetta (beautiful!) and went for one of the pizza's with a hole in the middle filled with salad ( just the right size for me) finished off with Semi Fredo Reale (scoop of nougat and praline gelato with an espresso), oh and I also had a large glass of rose wine.
Was just what I needed and the whole meal came in at 761 calories, plus around 180 for the wine.

Then we walked home and flaked out on the sofa and I stuck my poor feet in a big bowl of cold water!

Daily Cal Quota:	1391
+ Exercise Cals:	1307
Total Cal Quota:	2698
Calories Consumed:	2881
Calories Left:	-183

Protein (g)	150.7
Carbohydrate (g)	317.0
Fat (g)	66.6
Fibre (g)	10.5
Fruit & Veg	1.2 - I don't think this is accurate as it's not counting the veg in the paella of dinner, or the apple in the sorbet ;)

Water - I didn't log but did have quite a lot, though not enough for the heat a all the walking I did.

Meh.

Is how I feel.

I can't put my finger on anything that's 'wrong' but something isn't right.

I'm getting fed up with food - I miss being able to not think about it - sure I was a greedy bugger and I would think about food, but it didn't really matter before. I'd plan what main meals to have when doing the food shop. Chuck some cereal in a tub, add milk at work and that was breakfast. Lunch I'd see what was on the menu and have soup or baked potato at work.
Now I've got to plan 3 meals plus 3 snacks every single day. I'm only home for one meal and one snack so I've got to think of things that are work friendly. It's too expensive and time consuming to come up with different things to have daily - even having two options for each and alternating is tough and adds a whole other layer of thought and planning to eating.

But it's eating whatever I fancied, whenever I fancied that made me unhappy and fat in the first place!

I don't want to eat crap but I cannot spend my life with food having such a big impact and so much control over me! I know this isn't going to be permanent but it just seems like the end is so far away. In february I set myself a goal of losing 1.5 stone - that took 5 months!! And I still have about the same again left to lose. I think the whole thing of getting to goal then realising I still had so much further to go might be bringing me down a bit - I achieved my goal but still don't like what I see so feel as though I haven't achieved anything.

I thought about switching to maintenance cals for a week or so - but that wont help, I'll need to put even more thought into eating more and still keeping it healthy. I don't want to just take time off from the whole thing because I'll put weight on! Having a few extra pounds isn't a big issue, but I have been unhappy with my weight since high school and feeling fat brings me down too - I feel worse about being fat that I do right now so obvioulsy being fat and happy is not the answer!

I guess I just need to ride it out and hope it passes soon.

On the plus side, it's onlt the food stuff getting me down - I'm still really enjoying the exercise and hate if I have to miss it!